David, morning,
May I suggest a starting point to begin from?
Take a minute to re-read your post very carefully: you may see that you are defining yourself as 'piss weak' and as a person who 'does not care about the consequences'. Now ask yourself, is that who you wish to be, is that the way you wish to live? Sounds like there is very little self-respect. No one can give that to you, you create it by words & actions.
SO the answer is simple: Choose to behave, think & speak according to the standards you respect. From there you will become an honest person with self-respect, & will not make these choices that cause misery, and you will find strength not to give in to temptation or make excuses for the suffering you cause to yourself & others. Self-respect = strength & courage; lack of respect = weakness; misery & pain.
Is it really confusing, or do you choose to make it appear that way so that you can continue to excuse your actions/decisions? Don't delude yourself, be honest....
Have a read of Byron Katie (google her page): as she says, we all create our own story/version of reality to suit ourselves. She then asks, What is Your Story? She asks you to do 'The Work', that means, be honest & act according to the answers you discover.
All the best, Gail
From: david johnson <camarosa10000@
To: mylifeismine@
Sent: Thursday, 11 June, 2009 4:53:09 PM
Subject: [mylifeismine] lost
hi guys, all of you are right but i am still so piss weak and feel that this could be my undoing and feel that i dont seem to care about the consequences, but i know that its a load of shit of course i will care if i dont end it.....can anyone help? guide me tell me how to get over it please
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