David, morning,
May I suggest a starting point to begin from?
Take a minute to re-read your post very carefully: you may see that you are defining yourself as 'piss weak' and as a person who 'does not care about the consequences' . Now ask yourself, is that who you wish to be, is that the way you wish to live? Sounds like there is very little self-respect. No one can give that to you, you create it by words & actions.
SO the answer is simple: Choose to behave, think & speak according to the standards you respect. From there you will become an honest person with self-respect, & will not make these choices that cause misery, and you will find strength not to give in to temptation or make excuses for the suffering you cause to yourself & others. Self-respect = strength & courage; lack of respect = weakness; misery & pain.
Is it really confusing, or do you choose to make it appear that way so that you can continue to excuse your actions/decisions? Don't delude yourself, be honest....
Have a read of Byron Katie (google her page): as she says, we all create our own story/version of reality to suit ourselves. She then asks, What is Your Story? She asks you to do 'The Work', that means, be honest & act according to the answers you discover.
All the best, Gail
From: david johnson <camarosa10000@ yahoo.com. au>
To: mylifeismine@ yahoogroups. com.au
Sent: Thursday, 11 June, 2009 4:53:09 PM
Subject: [mylifeismine] lost
hi guys, all of you are right but i am still so piss weak and feel that this could be my undoing and feel that i dont seem to care about the consequences, but i know that its a load of shit of course i will care if i dont end it.....can anyone help? guide me tell me how to get over it please
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